Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].
Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.
Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.
This has been my life; I found it worth living.
adapted by Bertrand Russell
I don’t really know how to start this without sounding jealous or threatened,i will have to say it anyway. I went to a party on Friday night in our estate,sitting beside our table were these group of women one of them was so loud and dancing in a very unladylike way twisting as if she was a pole dancer,it would have been bearable had she been pretty,young and not too fat with flabby pot belly with a behind that were begging for mercy to be released out of it’s misery of being squashed into tight pair of orange jeans.At a stage it was so obvious that she was after my husband and what did i do? well! nothing, i just allowed her to fool herself,i went to the dance floor leaving my husband behind and she was all over him i watched from where i was wondering how bold and aggressively desperate can an old woman be after another woman’s husband.This is not the first time that i have to encounter these kind of behavior from women who are meant to be responsible citizens of this country.On Sunday again on our way back from a fashion show we stopped at this eatery place in our Estate to grab something to eat we decided to sit outdoors you know to breath in natural cool air. Two guys and a lady were seated opposite us,sadly the shameless lady was married to one of the unfortunate guys.The way the seats were positioned she was in direct view of my husband while i was backing her,i noticed that my husband was trying as much as possible to avoid looking in that direction that was what made me to turn lo and behold she was flashing him okay for those of that don’t understand what flashing means she wore this short skirt and her legs were apart that i could see her black pant that is if she was wearing any but i saw black anyway. She kept opening and closing her legs, i then asked my husband why the woman was behaving that way in front of her husband.Next time i checked she crossed her legs in a way that all her thighs were visible then she put her legs down again and kept opening and closing it,i was watching her while checking my husband at a time i asked him if i should go tell the woman to open her legs more for him he became defensive by saying that i was the one that called his attention to the woman and if i that was the truth, did i say he should not remove his eyes from those fat thighs again? We got our check paid but he was reluctant to just leave he asked for an extra bottle of small stout that was when it dawned on me that he was getting a kick out of the whole show. I allowed him without saying a word about it again until we left.We got home and i watched TV till about 1.00am while allowing him enough time to fantasize because i know that he is not definitely getting anything from me. Here women go after men shamelessly,while the men are no saints either they go after anything in skirt or gown,some of them stoop so low to making out with their nannies and domestic helps. I think i should get out of the house right now for my business sake.If you were in my situation concerning those shameless women what would you have done?
The popular American idol show has come to an end well that’s old news if you live somewhere else but here in Nigeria we just watched the last show last week Thursday.The two finalist were both good but i was hoping that Adam would have won,Americans preferred Chris,i sensed from Simon cowell’s reaction or should i say none reaction that he was expecting Adam to win as well.The good thing about the show is that you get to win something for being the most horrible singer during audition,for what it is worth i enjoyed this season so much because there was a lot of twist to what we are used to. I leave my house by 10 am every morning because i have to watch a Mexican soap on TV La Revancha or The revenge unless i have an urgent appointment then i will record it and watch it later. It is very annoying to see two people who are love suffering because of a stupid revenge,why is there so much hatred in this world? Guess what? AIT a Nigeria television channel on DSTV is showing a Korean movie every Sunday you all know how happy that makes me,Korean movies are my favorite movies although i can watch anything when bored.Can you imagine me watching “Meet the Spartans” an epic comedy,flipping through the channels bored and couldn’t find anything worth watching i ended up with this.Seriously is that suppose to be a funny film or what i was disgusted and angry for wasting precious time watching rubbish.Well last weekend i went to two events the Genevieve Pink Ball for breast cancer awareness and Eve2000 fashion show by Susan Eyo-Honesty the Deputy Editor in Chief, City People magazine.
Kemistry olisaemeka and some other models at the event
Mandy,Susan and Kenny
The performance by former governor of Cross Rivers state Donald Duke made my day at the pink ball.
Nigeria Next Supermodel
I have been so busy working,this morning i woke up to take stock of everything i guess because i was a little depressed.I found out that i work more than what i earn i know it is the initial sacrifice that i need to make for my business to take off,this is the 6th month since i started i wouldn’t say that i have done badly but i still feel that something is missing.maybe i should concentrate on the good things that have happened within the last six months.In the course of this business which am so passionate about i have met so many wonderful people,few nasty ones in between.I have been able to dine with government officials like governors,ministers,commissioners,celebrities which might not have been possible with this line of job.Some of them really appreciate and supports what am doing while some still need to be educated about the kind of vision i have.You all know that i love shopping and if any thing makes me to cut down on my expenditure then it is a sad case. I know that am rambling but i have to get it out of my chest maybe my husband will read this and understand that i need some money which i have not build up enough courage to ask him.Since that is out the way i did a photo shoot with the Nigeria Next Super Model,it was fun believe me the judges are going to have a tough time deciding who to crown the supermodel did i mention that i am very proud to be working with Mrs Joan Okorodudu the owner Isis modeling agency in South Africa who has been organizing this contest for some time now. The model that won the best model of the world is from her agency and also the guy that won Mr Nigeria, so you now understand why am happy to be part of this great vision you all know how much i love America Next Top Model but i heard that this one is even better.I have also wanted to be part of America Next Top Model,most of my dreams are coming to pass.You may ask so why am not so happy this morning well in a human being’s life there are times one need to think about where you are coming from,where you are now and also where you are heading to.Whenever i have this kind of feeling when i remember that the trees do not struggle to bear fruits then why should i whom God have created in his own image be worried when the birds of the earth can feed well, okay that’s different am not actually looking for money to feed but money to buy some equipments that i need in my business.Why should i worry about some equipments? will it grantee more jobs or more money? (more…)
This is a continuation of the last post by Chinedu (here )you like to read that first for better understanding of the situation at hand.You advice is highly needed,well in the comment section.
One day like that after the barber finishing barbing my hair I went to the tap to wash my hair, but since water wasn’t rushing. I went toward my hostel to go and change to my check. Then Mr. Johnson (navy man) came and told every one should come to him and line up and started giving everyone three each with his military belt, that time I wasn’t wearing anything on top and after he gave me three, that is when the koboko came. He was flogging us because it was time for afternoon prep and we did not hear the bell. But the boys that had marks on their back that were not wearing top went to report to XO (Executive Officer, Uncle Kelvin’s mate) she told us to go to the sick bay for treatment.
Another one was the one that I told you about the nail that cut my arm. It was not a nail, it was a navy man called “red army” that did it to me. I was busy washing my clothes and then everyone started running away; I started wondering what was happening, so I ran to. Then red army caught some people hiding, including me, I told us to hang (legs on the wall and hands on the ground) and I was the first person he floged with one big cane on my arm and back, both places were bleeding seriously. I reported to the sickbay and lied that it was a nail that caused it, because I didn’t want trouble with that red army again, and that was when the commandant came to the sickbay.
Stealing is a common thing in this school if you lock your locker, at night seniors will start jacking and breaking padlocks and steal one of your belongings and they will leave your locker open, or if you leave your school bag in the class and then someone will come to your class and then steal your notebook or something else they interested in.
In this school, you have to give and if you are a stingy person and you don’t like giving. Everyone will start fixing you (navy slang: focusing, disturbing you) and will hate you, they might take your clothes and burn them and start stealing your belongings. Plus if seniors are focusing on you, they might do the worst things for you.
When we are in class and the teacher is not around, my classmates start making noise and running around. And then a navy man or teacher will start punishing the whole class or will cane all of us. When one teacher gives us something to do and she counts to a certain number, for us to submit, and if you don’t submit during the count he/she wouldn’t accept your work. If you are coming back from break and you enter the class after the teacher, he/she will tell you to stay outside until the period is over.
Some of my seniors and mates ask me where I am from and tell them about my family, and then they ask me whether I like this school and I answer “no.” After, they asked me whether I want to transfer and I answer “yes,” then they said I should tell my parents that I don’t like this school and I want to transfer, because I don’t fit in this school.
Posted By tyna 
Jun 5, 2009 
