My Feelings.
My entire being feels sad, lonely and miserable. What a feeling for someone who preaches positive thinking I guess it easier said than done. Why am I feeling this way so early in the morning? That everything looks so uncertain, I am not sure of what to feel any more. Before when I want to feel this way I will look out and see the sun rising and it will give me new hope; at least the day is bright and fair but today even the heavens seems to agree with me no wonder the sky is dark and gloomy. Since happiness is a matter of choice why can’t I make that decision to turn around my feelings and be happy? Maybe am human after all, have I decided to be miserable and sad today? Is there any hope of my coming out of this state of mind later on today? I might not know the answers to these questions now. Am I just content with my misery; will the sun eventually come out today? Why am so lonely in mist of so many people? How I wish it is financial problem then I could ask for help from people, if it were physical sickness then I will go to the hospital. I don’t think any one can help me expect me. Then why don’t I help myself? I have a lunch date today will it be ruined by my mood? Or will I be feeling a lot better by then? I dressed my kids up for school this morning without the normal hassles I guess they sense the terrible mood that has befallen the ever cheerful mom. I am wondering what could be going through their innocent mind. Could it be the cartons brought by the moving company yesterday? Could it be the thought of around the globe journey with 4 kids 3 of which are under 5 years of age? Could it be my school works that are yet to be finished? Could it be my business? Could it be the changes that are going to take effect in my life soon? Fear of the unknown future ahead of me? Is the world coming to an end? Does my best friend know how I feel? Is he still my best friend? These feelings are not helping matters, I have hotels to find and book. I am thinking too much I guess; why can’t I stop thinking for a minute? If the sun is not coming out today, then let my wish of a rain be granted; let the rain come down and wash away my fears, let it fill my soul and drown out all my fears. Let it shatter all worlds for a new sunny day tomorrow. I can see the light in the skies.
Posted By tyna 
Jun 24, 2008 
even the greatest of warriors suffers wounds
and carry scars…you’re never alone;
there are moments in life we can’t possibly
help ourselves and nobody can help…we must
go through it alone - and still be victorious.
that we’ve stumbled doesn’t mean we are too weak
it shows in the race of life, there are plenty
hurdles to cross -mentally, emotionally, physically
and materially.
that you feel the way you feel [sister, i've felt that
way many times over!] tells you, you’ll never be able
to rest on your oars; there’s always something new to
learn and adjust in life, our personal life.
when, eventually, the sun rises and brings illumination
around the dark corners of your feelings, you can, with
a smile, sit back and reflect on what has happened today;
and pick up the missing pieces of the seemingly giant puzzle
that has subdued your feelings today!
the choice is still there to be happy…what we forget
to note is that, sometimes to make a choice we’ve got
to fight some monsters within and without.
as you’ve always done; you can win this battle too!
may the sun of your life never set…
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Everyone has their days. and some more than others. just try to do something you enjoy. usually makes me happier.
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Thanks i learnt a lot today,my bad mood set off a lot of actions and reactions.I will write about the lessons i learnt today.
that’s great to hear…
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I knew you would bounce back!
Tom thank you for believing in me.I back now and it is sunny today.
@beibee thank you,your kind and encouraging words helped me alot.
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you’re always welcome my dear sister…
going to read your recently posted topics;
topics very interesting.
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